TITAN (TANNER) 8/5/05
Pertinent Information - Adopted 9/3/05 - Rainbow Bridge 11/2/07
My poor, precious Titan... On 11/2/07, Titan passed on quietly in my
arms; he lost a hard fight against congestive heart failure and a severe
case of arhythmia. It seems so unfair; he was such a soft souled
gentleman and he didn't deserve to die that way. A few days ago, he
started coughing so terribly, it was more like a wretch. He spent his
last night at home awake, coughing. The next evening we took him to the
emergency vet, since his normal vet could not see him. They did every
blood test known to man and took several sets of x-rays. His lungs were
cloudy and he had lost 5 pounds. We decided to leave him overnight so he
could get treatment for what we thought was pneumonia. Naturally, we
were up the rest of the night contemplating how he could have caught
something like that and just plain worrying for him. In the morning, I
had my vet call the emergency hospital to speak to the doctor who was
treating him. My doctor called me shortly after and delivered the news.
Apparently, murmurs and arhythmia come on very, very quickly and the
diruetics they loaded him up on to remove some of the water from his
heart and lungs was not working. We were told that even if he did see a
cardiologist, there might be a tumor in his right lung that couldn't be
seen behind the cloudiness and even with medication for the heart
failure and arhythmia he probably wouldn't last another year. So, we had
the choice of bringing him home on diuretics but dealing with the
possibility that he could pass away at any moment from the arhythmia,
sending him to the cardiologist or doing nothing and taking him home
over the weeked, or, letting him pass on without having to suffer any
more than he already had. The doctors were basically telling me that my
best option for him was to let him pass on, but I decided that I could
not make that decision without seeing him for myself, because I know him
and his heart could speak to mine. As soon as they brought him to me, I
knew. He could barely walk properly and was so weak. His breathing was
wheazy and he had a hard time even doing that. He had lost another pound
and absolutely refused food and water. The most devastating part was the
he didn't even care that I was there. He came to me for a moment but
then went and laid down on the floor for the rest. What is so
unfair is that he only had 2 short years with us. I had plans for him to
take the therapy dog exam in a few days and now he's gone; it's all so
sudden. He went through so much hardship before we got him and I thought
that God would give him a break and let him spend a long time with us,
peacefully, but God called him home. The pain is too much for me to
handle right now, so I thought that writing this would help to ease some
of that pain. Titan was such a gentle, gentle soul, who would never,
ever hurt a fly, but he would give up his own life to save me, if I were
ever in trouble. No dog deserves to pass on like Titan did, but I had
hoped that when his time came, he would have a gentler time, instead of
a free fall. I had JUST taken him a couple months ago for a senior blood
work up, exam, urinalysis, cardiac check and exam and he had passes with
flying colors, except for his hip problem, which we tried to ease with
supplements. So, having this come on so suddenly was a huge shock. My
regular vet said this happens so often with older Boxers and it is
something that needs to be bred out of lines. I immediately took Kaylah
in for a cardiac check and exam, because even thought I had just taken
her 2 months ago, and like Titan, she passed with flying colors, these
problems come on so quickly. And thank God, she is fine and will go back
every few months for a check. Thank you God. We just thought we
would have more time with Titan. I can only hope that he knows how much
we love him and did not want to see him suffer. I hope that he is in
Heaven, with both Vicki's and Nana, romping around and playing, like he
could never have imagined. I want you to know, my brave,
brave, gentle souled, little gentleman, that you were truly a one of a
kind pup, who has touched my life more than I could have ever imagined.
You had my heart in your paws the moment I saw you. You were so sick
when you came home and that big old battle we went through just made us
even more in love with you. I am so, so sorry that I could not save you
again from these diseases; God knows you did not deserve them, so I am
literally beside myself trying to understand why he did. Maybe he ran
out of little guardian angels for other pups and decided you were the
most deserving of a stay in Heaven. It's going to take a long time
before my anger subsides, but I know that Nana is taking care of you and
both the Vicki's are probably challening you to constant races and
you're all binging out on cookies. The other dogs and the kitty all miss
you very much, especially Kaylah...she was looking for you earlier, but
we're just giving her some extra love, so she doesn't feel so lonely.
Even though you loved to spend hours at a time sleeping, there really is
a big hole here Titan. You're softness and sweetness is definitely
missing here and you can feel it. It's hard right now to believe that it
really is the quality of the time, rather than the quantity, but I'm
sure as time goes on, I will feel that way. I really hope that you know
how much I love you and how much I miss you. In a few days, we'll have
your ashes back and you'll always be right in my room with me, forever
and no matter where I go. You have such a special place in my heart and
my mind and you will live on forever there. I hope that when my time
comes and I see everyone, you will know that I am coming and you will be
there, waiting for me to. I love you my sweet, sweet angel.
9/27/05 - Titan's doing great. He is totally housebroken now and he is definitely not drinking anywhere near as much as he used to. He has put on about 4-5 lbs since he's been here and is just a total sweetheart. I can never walk past him without giving him a few pats on the head or a hug. He'll just stare at you with those big eyes and soak up every ounce of love. He is doing great with the cat. They play all the time and ever since he stopped chasing her around, she has accepted him as part of the family. He has even started giving me kisses and doing the boxer wiggle! The rest of my family has yet to get kisses, but I think it's just because I spend the most time with him. He gets up on the couch now and will get up on the bench at the end of my grandmas bed, but wont get on her bed at all, and he won't get on my bed at all until I put him there. We put him on the seat in the car and only once has he gone on the floor. Our dogs are welcome in every way at our house and I don't like them feeling like they have to sit or sleep on the floor. Kaylah and he are INSEPARABLE!!! They love each other to death. All this talking about him makes me want to go mash him with kisses!!
- Titan is doing wonderful! We were very concerned about his excessive
drinking (8 cups in 5 minutes about 4x a day) so we took him to the vet
on Tuesday and had him tested for diabetes and all that good stuff.
Everything came back negative. He said that he is probably just very
dehydrated and to give it a few days. Titan's protein is low and he is a
bit anemic, but the dr. says that once he puts on some weight that he
will be fine. He has stopped drinking as much as he was, but still needs
to be put outside every hour. Titan weighed in at 55 lbs, but needs to
be up around where Kaylah is (72ish). I think we have put at least 2 lbs
on him since he has come here. His ribs are a bit less visible and his
back legs look like they are gaining some muscle back. The surgery sight
is looking wonderful.
Tanner just got picked up by the Powell's. They were thrilled to
meet & it was definitely love at first sight! Kaylah was a BAR senior &
adopted by the Powell's last fall & will be his new sister. He is going
to be one really happy boy! Thanks BAR for another successful placement!
9/2/05 - Tanner is such a lucky boy, all his tests came back from the vet just fine and he was neutered. He is also pending adoption to a family who adopted another sr. Boxer from us last year. Good luck Tanner.
8/31/05 - Just had to send an update on Tanner. I stopped in at the pet store today & found some fun colorful stuffed squeaky toys for the dogs as well as some more treats. When I got home Tanner was very curious about what was in the bag. I thought he wanted the treats - but what he was really after was the new toys. I gave him the toy that was like a doughnut with a hole in the middle & boy did he spring to life! He had a blast; he play bowed with it, shook it back & forth, ran around the house & chased after it when I tossed it for him and just had a grand time squeaking the squeaker in it. He played half the night with it before finally collapsing in his bed! I'll send pictures as soon as I can get them downloaded to show everyone how much he loves his new toy & how much fun he had!
8/28/05 - Tanner had a bath with
Miss Daisy today. He was such a good boy, he just stood in the tub &
patiently waited until I finished with Daisy for his turn. When we were
done and I also gave Chloe & Duke a bath, Tanner stood outside the tub
intently watching to make sure I did everything right. Later they all
had there nails trimed & Tanner set such a good example that Chloe who
usually runs and hides actually let me do hers too; see Tanner's good
manners are starting to rub off on our dogs!!
8/27/05 - Tanner is absolutely delightful to have around & is a perfect gentlemen. Although it's not very likely, I'm hoping his good manners will rub off on our dogs. He's a good boy & doesn't need to be constantly on top of you (like some of our other dogs!) but is satisfied just laying in a spot on the floor or sitting nearby & will happily let you go about your business without getting in the way (of course he does keep intent watch of us with those big brown eyes!). He saw another bunny this morning when we were on a walk and was interested but didn't go on a mission to find it and was easily controllable; he just seemed to be interested in finding out what that little thing hopping around in our yard was. Tanner would be a wonderful addition to an older family as he requires little exercise & is so easy to handle on the leash.
8/15/05 - Just one more update before we go away for the week. Tanner will be staying right at home here with the pet sitter. He has been a great guy and is enjoying being with everyone after being in the shelter for a whole month! He's getting secure enough that he doesn't follow us room to room anymore & is just happy to find a place to stretch out & relax now. After we return from our trip we will get him in to see the vet to have his pre-neuter tests & neuter completed. If no one puts in a claim for him soon I'm going to see if they have any open spots for training for the pet therapy program that we participate in with one of our other dogs. Although Tanner doesn't have a clue about most commands he is very happy to please & has the charm & personality that would make him a wonderful addition to our pet therapy program here.
8/14/05 - Tanner is our guardian
protector from Grasshoppers. He found a grasshopper in the house &
chased it all over until it went up into a light where he couldn't reach
it. He has a very noble look about him and is always alert and looks
even more so with his ears standing up. We had a couple of very severe
storms, while he didn't show any fear, he did sit up & act very alert &
inquisitive, almost like he wasn't quiet sure what all the racket was.
8/8/05 - Tanner is doing wonderful. I wish our dogs behaved half as well as he does! He is such a gentlemen and just loves to be next to you. He doesn't get on the furniture & even when we take him for car rides, he prefers to sit on the floor & not in the seat! He does have a few boxer antics that always make us laugh - he absolutely loves to roll around on his back & bury his face in the doggy bed, on top of all that he makes all sorts of goofy noises & faces to go along with them! He has been absolutely wonderful with all of our dogs - no matter how obnoxious they seem to be and is willing to play with them if they initiate.
8/6/05 - Tanner has arrived. He is
very handsome & has very soulful eyes and an expression that will
absolutely melt your heart especially when he sits right in front of you
& gives you "the look"! Unfortunately his picture does not do him
justice here. We'll try to get some better ones.